To: John Cena
From: Nicole Orton
12/10/12
4:52pm

Dear John,

I hope your shoulder is feeling better. I'm doing my physical therapy on mine, but it seems to be making it feel worse. The medication I have to take makes me sick too, which is why I haven't been around much. That, and lately... well, I've been feeling like maybe you're mad at me. I know I acted like a baby when I found out you wanted to move. I'm sorry. I really am. I guess that what I said was kind of low. I know you didn't make her move away, and I did mean it as a joke. You've been kind of rough lately, friend. Things you'd usually find funny, or know are a joke, don't roll off you like they used to. I should have been a little more sensitive to that. It's normal, after all we've been through in the last few months for you not to be as good humored as you used to be. I hope these things haven't changed you forever though. I'd hate to think we aren't able to poke fun at ourselves anymore. So, I'm sorry I haven't called, texted or kept in touch, but I couldn't help but notice that you haven't either. I'm hoping maybe that's because you thought I was mad at you. We probably aren't mad at each other at all, and I made it all up because I have too much time on my hands because I'm just sitting around the house.

If you feel you need to leave St. Louis, I understand. I still don't like it. But it makes sense to me, and I'm sorry if I made you feel worse about it than I'm sure you already do.

Have you talked to Danny yet? I know, I'm annoying. Don't roll your eyes at me. You know, I think you should tell him. It's like, the very last piece. Then you never have to repeat it again, and I think you'll be amazed at how good it will feel to have someone else in your corner, John. You know they all think you're just this terrible person for not talking to your mother. I think, at least, Danny deserves to know. I know why you would hesitate to tell all your brothers. There's the chance everyone gets mad at your mom, and of course we don't want that.

Don't say anything to anyone, but Wes isn't doing so well. Hope says he is okay physically, but... I don't know him. I suppose he won't be himself for a long time. We were talking about Christmas, and he told me to invite you to join us at his house for Christmas dinner. Danny is welcome of course, but I do hope he'll be with his babies. In case you're wondering, no they won't be there. Jess told me last week that they were going to spend Christmas with Phil's family in Chicago. She's gotten very close with his sisters. It'll probably just be Me and Randy, You, Wes, the kids, Natalie, Richard & James, Lynne & her husband, Nonna and the Jerichos. :) Would love it if you want to try to make it. You shouldn't spend Christmas alone, John. No matter how tempting it is.

That new project I'm working on is going great. I was wondering if you could help me out with it. I need to do some studio work, and I was hoping you'd appear with me in the marketing video. :) Think about it, and I'll talk to you more about it in person.

Oh, and by the way, that photographer girl, Danielle, she was asking me about you on Friday. I went in to approve some of the new marketing materials. She mentioned she hadn't seen you around in a while, and asked if you were okay. I told her you were. She left it at that. I like her. She seems really nice, and has a good sense of humor.

We'll Talk Soon. Love you.
-Nic

To: Nicole Orton
From: John Cena
12/10/12
10:42 pm

Hey Babydoll,

Yeah, I know I've been a little MIA lately and I’m sorry for that. Kinda felt like after what happened in the hospital maybe it’d be best for everyone if I made myself a little scarce for a while you know? Last thing anyone needs right now is more tension and all you should be worrying about is getting better. Hate that you've been having such a hard go of it. Hope you’ll be feeling better soon. When I thought I’d lost you… well… here’s where I stop being serious and poke fun at myself or you right? Talk about my small ears, big head, ability to always stick my size 14 in my mouth? Wes would probably say I should have a better in-ring skill set with that kind of flexibility. Evan Bourne kinda skill. Spiderman kinda skill. PT can be a nightmare, no doubt about it, but if it hurts it usually means its working. If it was easy we’d all do it just for the massage therapy and relaxing Jacuzzi soaks afterwards right? I’m sure Randy’s sticking by you like glue but if you ever feel like changing up that PT Moral Support Coach, you know I’ll always be there for ya. As for my own shoulder, Doc Clemente’s decided to give me MRI’s every three months and start me on routine cortisone injections. I may not be as young as I once was but I still got a couple more years of work left in me and I’m going to make sure of that. Even if it means being the Doc’s little pet project on the side. Of course I hate every second of it but it’s worth it.

Not gonna lie. The little twitter comment stung a bit, most likely because that was one of the rare nights where I very regrettably decided drinking might be a good idea and you know firsthand my judgment, common sense, decision making, wardrobe, and choice in musical selections when I’m drunk are pretty poor. (I always seem to end up naked on tables singing something like “I’m a little tea pot.” One guess as to where my spout is… Are you blushing a little? Shaking your head? Doing that thing you do when you push your hair behind your ear and look down while you bite on your lip? You are, aren't you?) Attempt at lightening the mood out of the way, I felt pretty stupid later for taking it the way I did. I already knew you probably thought that way, blamed me for her leaving, and I don’t hold that against you at all if you do feel that way. I know you miss having her around, but I’m not mad at you babydoll. Just been trying to figure some things out. I wanted her to stay here too. I really, really did. I offered to leave just so she could stay. I get why she needed to leave though. Same reason I feel like I probably need to. I’m just trying to find a way to finally get some sleep at night. Move on. I drive around town and it’s full of memories of her or thoughts like, “hey, that’s where I tried to play chicken with a tree and lost” or “there’s the Orton’s house where I tried to kill Randy.” I'm not going to lie to you, I was pretty set on a move. Even found a great house on the cliffs in Solana Beach just outside San Diego. I just put in a pretty strong bid on it with an agent I found out there. Then I get an email from you and you've got me doubting it all again. You, little girl, have me wrapped around one of those diamond toting fingers of yours and I think a part of you knows it, damn it.

I know I've been kinda weird. Haven’t really felt like myself in a while. Trying to work on that and figure out a way to snap out of this funk. Danny has an interesting theory on why and how but that just goes to show why there will never be a PhD behind a Cena brother’s name. Man has either completely gone insane from all his own divorce drama and losing his job or he’s really the smartest of us all. I don’t think it’s the latter but then again the world can be a crazy place sometimes. I’ll be telling him soon. I wanted to wait until after Thanksgiving and his surgery. He had that a few days ago and seems to be doing okay. Just was debating about telling him before Christmas. He’ll be going up there to see his kids and Jennifer is making that really difficult for him so didn't want to give him another possible reason to have a bad holiday. He’s been pressuring me to go up there with him though and we both know THAT is never going to happen so I have a feeling the truth is going to be coming out pretty soon. And yes I did roll my eyes and shake my head (you know me too well) but, as always, you are right. See? I learned and actually retained SOMETHING from being married. The woman is always right… even if she’s wrong.

I didn't want to say anything to you about it but the last I saw of Wes he didn't look very well. Of course I told him he looked great. I didn't think he seemed himself either but I figured that would probably be normal considering everything he’s been through. Still, I think I’ll go pay him another visit soon.

As for Christmas, if you really think it’ll be okay with everyone I’d be happy to come. Means a lot to be invited actually. Thanksgiving alone wasn't too bad so I was prepared to have another frozen TV dinner and couch campout, but I have to admit, I've missed Nonna… and her cannolis. (There will be cannolis right?) Here’s to hoping the whole “John’s in the room let’s get suddenly quiet and stare at him out of the corner of our eyes” thing has come to pass.

Love to help out with your new project and the video and glad to hear it's going so well for ya. Miss the old days of working with you in the studio. Always fun and since I opened the new studio downtown I haven’t gotten to try out the new equipment too much. Got a new song I wrote for this new artist Jennifer and then she broke her contract and went AWOL. Need a new vocalist to sing melody so Marc and I are on the search for someone but I hope you’ll like it whenever it gets done. A little more personal than the usual stuff. Seriously gorgeous, I look forward to it. Just don’t overdo it okay? Scared the hell out of us all that day in the hospital when you fainted. Thought I broke you.

Photographer girl Danielle Costa. She’s a real spitfire isn't she? Funny. Kinda nice to have someone talk to me that doesn't look at me with “that look” you know? Someone that I have a clean slate around. Kinda wish I could remember working with her in the past. Even if I was being a dick in a no dick zone.

I love you too Babydoll and I’ll call you tomorrow and catch up more.

-John

To: John Cena
From: Nicole Orton
12/12/12
1:03am

Hey! Happy 12/12/12 :)

I understand why you made yourself scarce after the issue in the hospital, but Randy gets over things pretty quickly. You know that. Let me handle it. I'm glad to hear your issues aren't as bad as the rumors make them out to be. It's nice to be able to go right to the horses mouth.

I do miss having Jess around, John, but I don't for one second blame you for it. She moved because it was what she wanted to. She's living the life she wants to live, and I don't always agree with it, but it is what it is. I love her, and I love you, and there's no reason to think I blame you for her going. I think she left for a lot of the same reasons you're thinking of going. Believe it or not. Nothing sounds nice about living in California though. I mean can you imagine? Living somewhere it never snows? Where everyone wants to be a star? It just doesn't seem like you.

I wish Jennifer wasn't being so hard on Danny. He didn't do anything wrong to his kids. I've never understood women like that. Ever. My heart goes out to him really. Wes hasn't been taking many visitors, but he has been working on cars in the garage, so maybe if you guys didn't talk much, it'd be... good for him? And of course you're invited to Christmas. How could you not be? Nonna well have Cannolis for sure, and I believe no one will look at you out of the corner of their eyes uncomfortably. Considering the guy who damn near died and lost his daughter this year will be in the room too. You know Wes, always lookin' out for you by somehow requiring more pity than even you.

As for Danielle Costa and being a dick in a no dick zone. None of the girls ever said anything about being uncomfortable around you. I'm serious John, you just mostly kept to yourself, and acted annoyed when people tried to talk to you. It was never really any worse than the way say Triple H or Shawn Michaels or Bret Hart might have acted, too big for their britches or whatever. Danielle is a nice girl. She's older than me, 30 or 31 maybe. I vaguely remember the crew threw an engagement party for her about 18 months ago, but she broke it off with that guy. I don't know why. Not that you care, but I know she dated Jesse Sorenson from TNA for a while. They met at a Cardinals versus Astros game in Texas. I know Danielle used to freelance for the STL Post Dispatch at the sports games, before she got a full time position here at EBWF. Velvet was the one who was telling me they dated for a little while. He's from Houston though, so I think it was just a coincidence that he happened to be a wrestler. I don't know if Sorenson was the guy she was engaged to or not. *shrug* She's really into her work though. Always willing to show me her books if I ask what she's been working on. She likes taking the live action shots, but I know she does a lot of artsy stuff on the side. Someone told me (alright, Jessica told me) that Dani is really easy going, sort of go with the flow, and doesn't let much get to her. Not that you asked. Or care. Or that my track record with setting you up with people hasn't been completely fucking disastrous.

I think my final designs for the accessory, handbags and shoe line have been approved. I'm getting really excited, and I hope you and Marc can find time to produce the marketing tracks for me. I'm not allowed to use EBWFs resources because of some unrelated tax liability, and I'd have to pay you in drinks because Richard and Wes won't let me sink any money into this just yet. But it's my dream. I was meant to do fashion design. I know it. And when I prove it to them my budget will be better, and I'll toss you and Marc some money. I know, you're smiling. I always have more money than you, and you always end up paying. Really though, I had to blow what little budget Rich allowed me on the print ads. I attached one. Hope you like it! The model is sort of hot! And I love the play on my initials. The masters in marketing and advertising comes in handy sometimes!

All My Love,
Nikki

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To: Nicole Orton
From: John Cena
12/12/12
1:53 pm

Hey Babydoll,

So, the pessimist in me has to ask, is 12/12/12 double as bad as 6-6-6? If so I’m thinking I don’t want to leave the hotel today. Done with the day's must-do's so care to join me for a day full of crap made for TV movies and room service?

Yeah Danny’s not a complainer but I can tell he’s pretty stressed about the kids. Jennifer found all these articles and studies about how cops have the highest abuse rate among all professionals or some BS like that (We know she enjoys digging up those articles!) and is trying to use all this “research” to say Dan would be an “unfit” parent. That and the fact he always worked so much overtime to pay for everything she’s basically calling him a deadbeat dad. Not really working in his favor that he doesn’t have a steady job, a permanent home, or even a hundred dollars in the bank right now. Figure I could hook him up with the home part and help pad the bank account a little at least. He can’t really find another job until his hand finishes healing but he likes St. Louis so I’ve been checking out the Webster Groves area homes that are on the market for him. It’s where I’d want to raise a family anyway, and if he decides to head back up to north later at least he’ll be able to tell a judge he’s got a steady place down here for the time being. He’s not on board with any of it of course but if it means getting his kids he really doesn’t have much of a choice.

Think Wes and I are kinda on the same page with the whole, “not talking just working on the cars” thing. There’s no therapy like rebuilding an engine babydoll. So if all I can do is “not talk” to him to help him, buy some old beater on its last leg that I'll need help refurbishing, and just hang out in the garage, that’s what I’ll do. BTW, Wes may need to stop looking out for me so much… how am I going to repay him NOW? Not to mention, I’m not sure how much more either of us could really take. If working on the cars doesn’t help than maybe when he becomes a dad again he’ll snap out of it. Kids can change everything.

I guess the fact California doesn’t sound at all like me is part of the appeal of it though I guess that could prove to be a big mistake too. I’d miss the snow though that’s for sure. Never really been a fan of not being able to experience all four seasons. Just seems unnatural. I’m glad Jess is so happy now, even if some things that were part of making her so happy have taken me by surprise. Just wish she hadn’t had to move to Chicago to make it happen you know? Guess it makes sense she’d move to be with him. Since they’d been together for awhile. Hell, her name is STILL listed as an approved user on all my bank accounts, and that car I bought her as a surprise is STILL sitting in a storage unit across town. Guess those are just the kinda things that come with the territory of being with someone and getting serious. She might have left if none of what happened had happened, or she might not have. To be honest both options suck for their own reasons but it really was a weight of my shoulders to learn you don’t blame me for it.

Yeah, I am smiling. You are going to bleed me dry Babydoll! Lol, of course I’m joking. Marc and I would be honored to produce the marketing tracks for you. We kinda owe you anyway for all the times you’ve helped us out in that studio. Don’t worry about paying us anything, now or later. If it’s your dream I want to help out and Marc keeps asking when you are going to come back in and visit him anyway. (The little bit of staff we’ve starting employing really have no clue what they are doing and I could have more fun working with a honey badger than most of them.) That way, when you prove that you’ve got skill and you’re a famous designer, I can say I played a small little part in it. When you’ve gone off and forgotten little old me in all the red carpet fame and glory I can say that I once knew you.

Your track record with setting me up with people hasn’t been a total wash. I had some of my best moments with the last person you set me up with. Granted, I also ended up having some of my worst moments with her too, but I still can’t quite make myself regret that particular hookup. Not that I asked of course but thanks for the Danielle Costa intel. It’s not really fair when all a person has to do is Google search my name and they can find out just about everything, including what kind of underwear I wore in first grade (Batman. There are pictures online too which is just wonderful of course. Gotta figure out how those got on there... Yep, I wanted to be a superhero back then. Thought it was a real profession. There was a cape, aka tablecloth, and my dad’s snow boots involved. It was bad. Don’t search it. You’re searching it right now aren’t you?) Anyway, Danielle sounds pretty cool. No wonder she always seems so relaxed and comfortable around everyone backstage since she’s dated one of us dumb jocks before. I enjoyed working with her last time. She seemed more laid back than the rest of the photographers. Kept me laughing. She has a nice smile. Not that I care or anything. Just saying. She’s fun to work with. That’s all.

Oh yeah, glad to know I wasn’t a total ass hat to everyone for all those months too. Think I’m pretty much used to the whole not remembering thing by now but every so often something comes up that makes the not remembering a factor again. Like the fact I apparently wasn’t paying utilities for the last three months or so of my craziness. Woke up in a hospital one day with a huge debt to the city of St. Louis and came home to no power. Oops. Not to mention, it’s kinda awkward not knowing if the person I may be talking to is owed an apology that I don’t know I should be giving. So if I see people looking at me weird now I know it’s not that. Great. Means it’s something else...

And yes, the model is very hot. So's the outfit and the initials, but especially the model. Absolutely stunning. You are definitely off to a great start babydoll.

Love,
John